I have lately been submerging myself in the body acceptance and self acceptance movement.
But I guess I haven't really been paying attention. Oh I've been accepting my body much better then ever before. The other day I found myself telling my husband how nice I thought my boobs are. He obviously agreed. So the BODY acceptance part has seen some progress.
The self acceptance part is a little harder.
I was wallowing the other day in what a worthless person I am. A crappy mom, friend and wife. Just really self pitying the heck out of myself. Reliving shitty things I've said and done, reliving shitty things other people have said and done to me. And then I was like "I am so TIRED of doing this." Exhausted, fatigued even. I made some mistakes and I accept that at times in my life I haven't been the best me I could. And yeah there are jerks in my life who have made me doubt myself. But I am so bored of letting it define me.
I am moving on. I will not beat myself up anymore. I won't tuck away all the hateful words just so I can pull them out later and mull over them pathetically. I am going to accept me. The good and bad, and look towards the future. I will keep working on loving my body, but I am going to work just as hard on loving me.
Because let's face it, I am pretty fucking fantastic.
What do you need to move on from?