I always feel so incredibly stupid when I realize that I have been let down again. By family, friends, co workers. I feel naive. Too many times I have expected someone to have my back or be there for me and they disappoint. And still I am shocked and heartbroken when they don't come through. They make me feel worthless and not worth their time.
I don't mean that I expect big things. Just basic decency and kindness. Common courtesy even. But I still expect people to be there for me and they let me down. Every time. You would think that at some point I would learn.
My husband always reminds me that it's us against the world. So I try and remember that. I can rely on my family. The one I have created as an adult. And not have too many expectations of people outside of that.
It makes me sad to have to feel that way. Painful, but necessary.
Do you still have expectations of people?