This is how I've been feeling lately. Just too much stress. They come in an check my blood pressure and say its elevated, well no shit! Hopefully Bliss will come home by the end of the week and I will be going home tomorrow to be with my other babies who I miss so much.
I got really sad last night after I left the NICU, I want all of them all at once. I don't want to leave any of them anymore.
Also I've been having problems with people in my life. I am beyond sick of fake friends and shitty family. The older I get the more I realize how you have to make your own family. I would rather have one or two amazing friends then a big group of so-so friends, or emotionally distant relations. And I do have some really amazing friends and some amazing family members. But instead of worrying about the rude ones I will concentrate on the ones who have been there in my life when I have needed them.
Its funny because I was reading Ethel's blog about her son's wedding and I was going to ask her how her family reacts to her blogging. Does it bother them or do they just nod and smile? I know how hard relationships are (especially the mother-in-law/daughter-in-law ones. Those require some finesse and tongue biting sometimes ;) And then I get an email from someone complaining about me posting things on facebook. Not even about them just about my life. And it hurt my feelings quite a bit, because why can't you just be happy for me and my family, you have to bring up mean things cause your life is hard right now? Also on a side note, when you say something offensive, don't say I hope your not offended. If you were worried that I was going to be offended then you shouldn't have said it. But anyways I'm not going to stop blogging or posting things on facebook, because I like to do it, and if they don't like it then they don't have to read it. And like I said, you make your own family and I think I've got a pretty kick ass one so far. And I will continue to weed out the ones who aren't making things better and cultivate the ones who are.
Despite all this whiny-ness, I am actually quite happy and optimistic lately. I have three beautiful children, the best husband in the world, and some really fantastic friends. And I know with these people by my side, my life will be amazing and successful.
P.S. Go read: The Adventures of Fred and Ethel, she is so honest and interesting. I really feel like I know her because she lets people into her life through her writing.